Wednesday, May 16, 2007

To my beloved husband!

blow through my soul,
trough my skin,
release my hurt
release my pain,
feed the fire within my heart,
the flame within my skin,
the ice within my brain,
the passion within my desire!

- as I reach deeper and deeper in you,
deeper and deeper with you,
- as I let you go and come to me
and go and come with me!
- as I let things go and come
I do not want to leave or live.

Oh dear,
Inspire me to unknown lands,
to unexperienced limits,
and let flow our love,
our plans and visions freely.

Allow our emotions
thoughts to transform
free themselves
free Me,
free You,
and even free Us
Us together
so that we may share ....
Share the unsharable!

Allow us to dream
dream sweet nothings,
sweet anythings
yet have the power
the power to make our lives whole...,


Monday, April 30, 2007


Hi day!
Plz give me a break!

Hi day!
Plz bring me some relief!

Hi night!
Plz give me some peace!

Hi night!
Plz bring me some starlight!

Hi friend!
Plz give me a hand!

Hi friend!
Plz do not give up on me!

Hi unfriend!
Plz open your heart and mind!

Hi unfriend, again!
Plz stop and shake my hand!

My day!
My night!
My friend!

I am bms!

I am bms!
as in bad - mad - sad!



I will be persisting.......
by your sides...
My day!
My night!
My friends!
My unfriends!


Monday, April 16, 2007


Rain, of pain
Rain, to sane

Ray in pain
Lady in Vain

Rain, of pain
Rain, to confusion





Tuesday, March 20, 2007


Nice to have you around!

Waterdrop! in my heat!

Waterdrop on my skin
Waterdrop on my wet and hot lips

Waterdrop dancing to my fire!

Waterdrop melting my desire!

I Do want .....

Waterdrop to my eye

Waterdrop to my heart

Waterdrop in my hand!

Waterdrop into my brain!

Waterdrop into my veins!


with my energy....

you be stronger!

Waterdrop on me

Waterdrop in me

My spiritual and physical fire

and the entire desire

Waterdrop I do embrace you!
Embrace you at least imaginary!

Waterdrop intact into my desert


I am so Greatful

.......we are connected!


I wish you could ask for me!
- before anything else!
even though just for that very imaginary!

I wish you could ask for me!
even though we are just virtuality!

- Sane!


But I am glad

Not mad!

- that I at least can enjoy!
Enjoy the poetry of your soul!

So I will take care of you ......

my waterdrop even in ........


The sane!


Monday, March 19, 2007

Ceasar of my dreams!

You make me happy all the time

all the time!

just by being around!

You do fill a lot of emptiness in me!

and you make me feel so special

bcz You are the Special!

Dear! all the things I feel twds you are so highdimensioned

so highdimensioned that I am just so confused!

So confused!

I am very sensitive

but usually not with this such intensity,

not with this such fire and such purity!

I see frwd to go away

just to calm down,

Just to calm down!


I do consider you as my Soulmate,

my best friend,

my biz partner,

my ..........

I hope you are .....

But no matter,

you are with me all the time,

with every breath,

every thought,

every heartbeat,

every nanoaction in me!


I just do miss You

Miss You so much!

So much!

Thursday, March 8, 2007


touched by your flame
touched by your passion
touched by your clearity
touched by your desires
touched by your energy
touched by your warmth
touched by your laugh
touched by your awareness
touched by your senses
touched by your intelligence
touched by your kindness
touched by your trust
this is why you are irresistable like a magnet of beauty
a universe of love and power
a person of positveness
a gift from the gods
a treasure to behold
I love you too .........

Wednesday, February 28, 2007


Dearest You!

I do miss you and I will always do so!
Do miss you
Miss You more than anyone has and ever will do!

Dearest You!

This is the Mental dimension of my power and my feelings towards You!

Dearest You

What ever your terms are or ever will be!
I am very competetive and Yet there hasn´t been any challenger
Any challenger worth that capacity!
I do promice!

Dearest You

I do promice!
I am Mille % in everything!

You are a huge challenger!
Yes a huge challenger!

But just smiling

and smiling,
Oh So sweet!
and smiling,

Oh So sweet!

Dearest You

I do miss you and I will always do so!

Do miss you

Miss You more than anyone has and ever will do!

I do accept your challenges!
The question is:
are you ready to accept mine?


Tuesday, February 20, 2007


"Courage! I have shown it for years; think you I shall lose it at the moment when my sufferings are to end?"

Marie Antoinette

Sunday, February 18, 2007

A bit lost in .........

I have gone so far

I have tried so hard

My mind is so heavy!


My heart is so heavy too!

I wanted to reach the sky,

I wanted to be enlightened by the sun,

But instead I just found your shadows,

Your dark shadows!

My heart is so cold


My brain is so burning

My heart is full by sorrows


My brain is full by secrets

I have gone so far

And I have tried so hard

So hard to find out how to love you


My mind and my heart are so heavy

I wanted to reach the sky,

I wanted to be enlightened by the sun,

But instead I found your shadows

Your dark shadows!

Till next dimension.....


Wednesday, February 14, 2007


IQ spirit

An ice-sharp thought
A starlight feeling
A desert-hot soul

A dark-empty mood

In all humility

At your complete disposal
Your Excellency

White - approval
Black - denial

4 ever?

Saturday, February 10, 2007

If You Forget Me

If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,

if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly you
forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots
will set off to seek another land.

But if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

by Pablo Neruda

Friday, February 9, 2007

Mental knight

Mental knight I wander,

Are you real or
Are you just a dream
Or did you just come

come by

to bow


my soul

You came and whispered

whispered hot-hot words

directly into my heart

But did you do it

just to let it,
my heart,
burn down

down to ashes

You came and whispered
whispered hot-hot words

directly into my heart

But did you do it

just to let it,

my brain,

melt down

down to air

I thought

I was going

for a trip,

with you,
with you to the moon

But soon

I realised

that the devil

had taken

taken over

the gear!

My journey

became marked
marked by hard

hard and deep

deep battles
During days and nights
During every breath,

every heartbeat,

every thought,
every twinkle,
every step

The case isn’t simple
my journey seems to be

more and more painful

My tears are now

as hard

as steal
my temper

is just in


My case isn’t simple
my journey seems to be

more and more painful

Mental knight I wander,

Are you real or
Are you just a dream
Or did you just come

come by

to bow


my soul

Mental knight among all the shadows

Do you want to let me go?
Just to Be free?



Thursday, February 8, 2007

What it is to be a man.

MY code: What it is to be a man. (by BI)
I am a strong, intelligent man. I am proud of my masculinity, but not proud of how men treat women. I swear to adopt a new code for what it means to be a man.

I REJECT unconditionally all violence against women and children.

I REJECT the buying of sex with women and children.

I WILL intervene when I see a man beating a woman.

I WILL NOT beat my wife or partner.

I WILL INTERVENE when my male colleagues, friends, or family belittle or degrade women.

I RECOGNISE prostitution as harmful to women and will do everything I can to see the end of it.

I REJECT the buying of pornography, recognising it as sexual exploitation.

I WILL NOT BUY products that advertise by exploiting women’s bodies when it has nothing at all to do with the product.

I WILL NOT visit clubs and bars that exploit women through ‘exotic’ dancing.

I WILL NOT BUY newspapers and magazines that advertise sexual services.

I REJECT all forms of sexual harassment, including wolf whistling, sexual insinuations, and unauthorised physical contact.

I WILL INTERVENE when my male colleagues, friends, or family engage in sexual harassment.

I WILL RESPECT my female colleagues and partners as equals.

I RECOGNISE decision-making at home is about equality and partnership.

I WILL ENCOURAGE other men to adopt and live by this code, including teaching it to my

to learn more:

Tuesday, February 6, 2007


I feel sorry for U!
And I can´t stop thinking
thinking about how someone
someone so "successfull" can be
can be so angry!
So angry!
So sad!

I didn´t see any smile on your face,
your "sight" seemed so lost, so ............

Maybe your behaviour is something you think,
something you feel can restore some kind of emptiness,
some kind of emptiness in your beeing,
in your soul!

So you see dear fellow beeing:
this is a kind of my faiblesses,
I am too concerned
More concerned about U
and others than myself,
always trying even to converte
even my enemies
to and for the better!

give up or not give up that is my daily quest.


Monday, February 5, 2007

Just a small individual reflection

Yesterday I took a long walk in a quite, calm, cold, relatively sunny and beautiful city and suddenly realised how praised I must be to be able to do just that! All by myself, quite comfortable and without any disturbances. And so free.
I felt praised to feel that free in a country declared to be one of the world’s most "equal” countries regarded to humanistic issues, gender issues, welfare issues and so on! (I would not claim that things are 100% anywhere but at least I can not find any other place which would match these facts/ experiences!

Along my walk I thought about the humanistic issues regarded to a collective view, though I am very individualistic! Suddenly I was not so sure about if there also could/ must be a gender influence in that definition! And consequently I had to realise that an individual view might also be coloured by whether it is from an XX perspective or an XY dito?
Indeed not so easy stuff to deal with such a cold, calm and relatively sunny day! But I am an engaged person who doesn’t miss to cease any occasion for making any difference.So dear folks and friends take a little of your time and try to make the same think-tank journey where ever you are/ how ever you are/ Who ever you are, and maybe if you wish or…..get back to me or just to yourself with ........

have a nice day where ever!

Sunday, February 4, 2007


Why must I/ we exclude any expressive contribution
explicatively in our extravagance daily life?

Sitting here reflecting over…..

I know where I am from but am I sure about where I am going to?

I am very impressive and at the same time very expressive!
That is at least what I want to be....
And that might be my libe-rebell shape.

There are a lot of people in the world who have so little to say

but they don’t miss to cease any occastion to write or talk….
Or maybe someone could say that there are too few of them;

it is thus up to each one of us to estimate!

There are many in the world who have a lot to express
but who don’t say or write anything,
many who are forced or even freely choose to be absolutely silent.

- Cold words (explicit/ implicit) hurt and they are eternally around....

Have a nice time where- and who ever!


Saturday, February 3, 2007


We met! We separated!

I suffer and maybe you did a bit too!

I wish the journey could have last for longer

All that was and is done has been written.......

The destiny was and still is against me

Emptiness is all that is left at least for me

And when our short journey now is over

I wonder what could have been done to make over…

Our daily lives, my temper, your temper

For me: Just emptiness, just sadness, madness?

Anyway I am glad I had the chance to have met you

And spend even that little time with you

And still my dear I do hope that one day we can meet

Meet again, somehow, someway, somewhere....

wbr, eternal


Friday, February 2, 2007


Hello There Nice Person
Did Anyone Ever Tell You,
Just How Special You Are
The Light that You Emit
Might even Light a Star
Did Anyone Ever Tell You
How Important You Make Others Feel
Somebody out here is Smiling
About Love that is so Real

Did Anyone Ever Tell You
Many Times, When They were Sad
Your E-mail made Them Smile a bit
In Fact It made Them Glad
For the Time You Spend Sending Things
And Sharing whatever You Find
There are No Words to Thank You

But Somebody, Thinks You're Fine
Did Anyone Ever Tell You
Just How Much They Like You
Well, My Dearest "Online " Friend Today I am Telling You


I believe that without a friend you are missing out on a lot!!!

Don't be confused by friends and acquaintances, there is a difference!

Because I care about you, It's national care week . . . and you get to

send messages to all your friends telling them that you care about them and make them feel good about themselves and if they write back . (just once) then that means that they care about you too.

BUT, you have to send it right now!!

Send it to everyone you care about and if they send it back. That means they care too. But don't just send it back, send it on to everyone.

Have a nice day, and I'm glad we are friends!!!


I choose to pass it to the world!

“Inventas vitam iuvat excoluisse per artes”

Those familiar with "me" know of my eternal "hostility" to collective thinking and categorizing. The key to living well – is to recognize that we are social beings who need the cooperation of others while, at the same time, remaining and retaining our individuality. We need to maintain an energized awareness that never allows our social needs to pre-empt our individual judgments about the propriety of our actions.

This week is for Friendship at least here where I am: so Dear fellows and readers I do offer you my Best and Eternal Friendship absolutely FOR FREE and without any conditions! :)

- I hope you will accept it! All of you!

Humanity is a big Art!

and - arte es?

"Arte es lo que los hombres llaman arte!"

Thursday, February 1, 2007

I do cease all occasions!

........every moment in my daylife! and every time I can make a diff I do cease the occasion! Otherwise I would not waste my time in this or that...

And nb: I have never accepted to be some one less valuable than any one else since I was a small kid though I was born so far from here! And as an "intruder" in one´s or an others´s world/ life I can absolutely not boast beyond that limit!

~ I usually feel have been tested and judged x-tra hard compared to "others", to be a bit different, a bit too individual and female at the top, that is a good challenge I do assure you!

So if anyone asks or wander:
I am and want to be a unique individual and I don´t want to be categorized in collective boxes so the choice is there and everyone must decide for him-/ herself whether anything is worth a .......

........have a nice day in any case who ever!
and with my best regards!

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Just a small reflection:

Nowadays I must keep reminding myself about the need of beeing humble twds the complexity in the human culture and nature and its effects on ............!
Nowadays I must remind myself about the need of beeing Humble twds my and others behaviours! How do I behave? How should I behave? The others....?

Usually I consider myself as a very well experienced individual but more and more often I just stop by realising that The "knowledge" (often "no-ledge") is as relative as other matters in our "daily lifes"!

Life is strange sometimes!
Life is strange many times!

Early in my life and due to the "destinated pathway" of it I always tend to do things differently and before I found myself quite comfortable with it!
I don´t know if I am now............

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Wise words

Paulo Coelho:

"live your Personal Legend, pay the price of your dreams, read the omens, awaken your feminine side, and dare to be different.

.......... there are some battles that kill you, and some that make you stronger. For me, it is the latter. I never see myself as a victim of circumstances, but as an adventurer who must, from time to time, cross troubled waters."

- to .... or not to..... that is the question!

Free Your Soul

Take a good look around
Your desire for freedom is unbound

No one can put you under control
You are a woman with a free soul

Get out of your misery
Follow your instinct to discovery

Your whole life is ahead
Why should you be afraid

Grab the bull by the horns
Don't worry if at first it burns

Follow your instinct
Or you'd become extinct

Your love for material and fame
Is the one to blame

You can make a great thinker
If you forget about getting richer

Let go of greed
Think about getting freed

Make no compromise
When it comes to your demise

Make love your priority
For as long as it doesn't threaten your liberty

Help every living soul
For as long as losing freedom is not the rule

Your freedom is precious
For as long as you are not vicious

When you finally realize that everyone you meet is entitled to the same treat

Your life would have reached its utopian deed
And you will finally be freed

© 1996 Khalid Elfellah

Monday, January 29, 2007

The Secret Language of Men

The Secret Language of Men
David Zinczenko

The numbers say it all: In studies, women speak an average of 20,000 words a day. Men speak an average of 7,000. And we waste a lot of those words on meaningless chitchat with cabbies, talking sports with coworkers, and making small talk with the IT guy in the men's room.
"Cold out there, ay?"
"Sure is."
"Have a good one."
"Later, dude."
While it's clear that women are the talkers of most relationships (only 29 percent of men admit doing more), this doesn't mean men always have their own mute buttons pressed. Even men of few words communicate a great deal; we just speak more code than a CIA operative. Though our common comments can seem superficial, there's plenty of hidden meaning behind what men do talk about. Here, some translations ...

read more at the link....

Sunday, January 28, 2007

A Q In sane

Q-sanity: Emi Grant (Alias)

According to a popular wisdom it is only nuances that separate geniality from sanity and it is further said that many of the greatest historical geniuses were as crazy as they were genius.

Creativity is the rescue however since it is an interplay between intelligence and the brain’s degree of chaos and it is further said that there must be high intelligence to keep order in the “thought-swarm” to avoid the Chaos and we can, all of us, be placed somewhere between our inhibitions and our creative capacity!

- Accordingly it is up to everyone of us to allow itself to experiment in a positive spirit!

I am So Sorry

I am so sorry, so sad!
I never wanted to hurt U! - No!

I am so sorry, so sad!
I never wanted to make U angry or discomfortable! - No!

What have I done to diserve such hard punishement?

What have I done to diserve such hard judgment?

My intention was and still is:

a good one!
- but does it matter? Does it help?
- I suppose Not!

I am so sorry and so sad!
And I really didn´t want to Hurt U!

This seems to be my destiny!
-Ok! I will go for it!

You might be very stubborn, and I am extremely patient....

- So I will keep fighting for U!

Do miss U!


Saturday, January 27, 2007

Just a small reflection.......

The English author and philosopher Aldous Huxley said at the end of his life: It is a bit embarrassing to have dedicated your whole life to the human dilemma just to realise at the end that you don´t have anything else to offer in advise except: "try to be a bit kinder/ nicer”. So simple – and so difficult – it is!

So: Kindness and gentleness must be the best and greatest thing that we can offer the world around us!

"The price of Greatness is Responsibility."


Friday, January 26, 2007

art of ............

I was born next to a pond. A fragile leaf from a strong tree, I blossomed to a tall branch. Too ambitious for my pond and too rebellious to stay in my tree, I decided to change my destiny and break free.


from: the art of words By D R. Temsamani

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Peace, plz

Peace in my mind: Emi Grant (alias)

I started to miss you though and yet before we had met!

- or did we maybe already meet some other time/ some other dimension?

You could have been my Nirvana but instead you turned out to be my "Dead"……….

I do realise now that If I got more involved with you than I did and am! Well then I don’t know if I could have managed your way to act and react when things turn out a way you don’t like or accept!

I was ready to leave my place to be near you, if not with you!, but have you ever been ready to sacrifice anything for anyone else than yourself?!

…… You see my friend though you dislike me as such one, If I keep going on this track then I do have a huge problem and have to reconsider everything, my situation/ my life/ my person and so on……….

Somehow It is sad when I know that it could have been something really special, between us, really fine, for us, if you just weren’t in such a paniking hurry!

Anyway: let us try to “meet” (in one or an other way) again compromising half way each and see what could have happened! Meet more open-minded and free from any expectations……….


Wednesday, January 24, 2007

An honour to u!

Hi! U over there, u somewhere, u anywhere!

Primo: U got to know and understand that I have been doing hard work to keep my senses on Earth! I have already said that and I do say it again! And again!
Clearly and honestly!

... my heart is still palpitating, and again and again I declare that I do hope I could stop what I am doing now!

I do wonder sometimes how an innocent coincidence can get u one or an other place as the one where I am now!
Though I must say that it is amazing/ scaring and I admit even a bit wonderful too, to live in a fantasy even for a twinkling of an eye!

- what is there to say or to do when u meet someone who is capable to make u feel or act as a bit lost, a bit confused, a bit crazy, also a bit ticklish! or even "act like a devil"?

- What is expected from one and an other when expectations are not as clear as u want!?

Where are you soul mates, fellow beings or someone like that? What is to do?! Please just tell me, anyone!?

I am curious by nature and beside my curiosity I cared 4 u! and cared quite much to not spoil any opportunity! To meet u!

During these last days there has been happening something that maid me feel like a teen at the 19:s though I must consider that it is decades! ago!

Sometimes I cannot resist to go on wondering how an innocent coincidence can get u one or an other place as the one I am now!

- But! If conditions were otherwise you could be the soul I would move to the moon for!

With my best regards!